I apoligize for the lack of updates.

Well..just been tired. I'll burden you with my thoughts later. And I've been doing quite a bit of thinking nowadays.

Till I see you in my dreams, my dear Valkyrie.

Bad Luck

Well. Bad news first.

I lost my Bus Pass.

Annoyingly enough, I lost it sometime today. I have no clue where. So I took the bus to Lincoln Fields to get a new one, even though it would cost me money. Problem: They closed 2 minutes before I got there. So therefore, I had to wait until tomorrow. Wasted another hour of my time.

However, I discovered I have a talent for remembering girl's faces. Pretty girls. Since I took an hour long joyride, I saw two very pretty girls. Right now, I haven't seen many pretty asian girls in Ottawa (girls I don't know), but I have seen many pretty white girls. The first one I saw was a brunette, but she dyed her hair blonde. She had a devil's halo showing. What struck me was her very smooth complexion. Smooth ivory skin with rosy cheeks. Slim. She looked very nice for a woman that was around 28-30 (estimate).

The second one was the girl that struck me the most. She boarded the bus with me at Lincoln Fields, so it was like 15 minutes of staring. Quite. I don't think I could have helped it. Reddish brown hair that shone. Must have been a metallic dye. Green-grey eyes. Triangular heart-shaped face. Slim. White jacket over a light blue tank top. Tight form fitting jeans with paint splotches. And she had this cute little non-frown expression. I just thought she was very very cute. It looked kinda like a sullen Lindsey Lohan kinda look. Although I don't think Lindsey Lohan is cute. Weird.

Oh well. Still freaking upset?...annoyed would be better... at losing that bus pass.

Thinking about....nothing in particular

People come and people go.

I have to admit something. I remember people based on names. I don't remember people based on how they look. I remember people based on their names. Names to me are your identity. I remember people grouped together by name and how you look are just a quality attached to the 'name' structure, in programming terms. I think this is why I don't remember names that often. To me, the names are the most important tag to people. I have to know a person after talking to them a few times before I remember what their names are.

However, once I can connect you to a name, I usually remember most stuff. This forgetfulness at names however, does not make me popular.

I wonder what I can do to make myself remember names? Maybe if people were more extraordinary?

More weird dreams

Well. Yesterday I slept at a relatively normal time (10:00pm) and I had the most...strange dream in a while. The reason it was strange is that it was actually about myself. Although the settings were not clear, there were many past elements in it. It was a long dream, and I don't think I remember the first part of it. It involved me talking about growing up and how the last 5 years was pretty much the same.

Then the second part was really interesting. It was me and discussing my crushes over the years. I have termed them to be crushes, not even at the level of like, just because I don't believe that they have ever gotten me to do anything before. Most of them, I stop short of doing anything about my feelings, therefore, those feelings must not have been that powerful.

Now, someone, I don't remember who, but he/she acts as my second. My most trustworthy accomplice. Let's call it a him, for the sake of pronouns. He brings up each of my crushes, and I keep saying that each of them were a crush, no more. And yet, it kinda hurt just looking at each of them. After each of them were shown in turn, I stated to each of them were just a crush to me, nothing more. To my shock, the last girl on the list actually frowned at this. She was the only one that had a different emotion displayed afterwards. She frowned and then looked kind of shocked. She asked me if this was true. I said yes, that she was only a crush to me. She then expressed her disbelief at this and told me that I did really like her. That the only reason that I never pursued her was not because of my lack of feelings, but rather, but rather the fact that she had a boyfriend already. That implied an obstacle that I did not care to go over. And that she said was the real answer. I did not want to struggle to achieve what I want to get. And then she kinda looked sadly to me. And then it ended.
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So did I really like her? Maybe. Who knows. I still think, in consciousness, that it was much too soon to say it was like. Since I hardly spent any time with her. But meh. It's kinda interesting that it was such a thought provoking dream compared to the other dreams I have. And it was weird too because if I remember the first part correctly, it was about which of the 3 roads I should walk down, Achievement, Happiness, or Respect. This would definately fall under Happiness.

Anyways. Enough writing for tonight. Till I see you again, my Valkyrie, my Muse. I so want to meet you again.

Haha. Not much going on.

So...this weekend....did nothing. I wanted to go out Saturday, but the thing was that it rained and the sky was dark so I stayed home. It wasn't that much fun going out in the dark and wet. Sunday, I was tired, so I slept the day away.

I never said what happened on my first day of work. First day of work, I was told to report in at 10 oclock. The thing was, the bus that runs from my place to there actually stops at 8:30. So, I decided to take the latest bus possible so that I don't have to wait for the interview long. The problem was, I timed it too perfectly. I was on the other side of the road when the bus zoomed passed the bus stop. Since that was the last bus, I decided to walk. It was fun. 6.8km.

Anyways. Nothing new here. Been sleeping at odd hours though. Oh well.
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So I've been thinking. There are three major paths that everyone can choose: Achievement, Happiness, or Respect. Achievement, as in the achievement of goals set by yourself. Happiness, as in joy, not contentment. And Respect, as in reputation and how others see you. I wonder which one is the most worthwhile? How many people actually come to the end of their road?

Personally, I think happiness would be the 'easiest' and probably the one that would make you feel good. But Achievement would be where you'll 'grow' the most into a better person. Respect seems to be a balance of both. But which ones should I choose I wonder? And I wonder how other people would choose. Would you choose achievement, happiness or respect as your path in life? Comments people, comments please.