Still feeling sick.

Still feeling a bit sick, but I'm getting better. Been looking at some of the old stuff that I have, and some of the chat logs I have go all the way back to 2000. Wow. Six years ago. Has it been that long already?

I was talking to Jenny about university life, since her acceptances are coming in soon. And as a whole, I realize that girls seem to make friends more easily then guys. At least, in Waterloo. And that in Waterloo, you have two options, of having a really closeknit group of friends, no more than 5-6, or a large group of acquantainces, or at the very best, acquantaince friend level. For girls, they usually take the second route rather then the first, whereas most guys have different cliques depending on interest or adversity levels.

Riel 1/20/200 12:21 PM ------------ Wrote:
well.. depends on your personality... but i
would advise you to start talking to girl(s)
about personal stuff, like intimate... just
pretend as if you're doing it out of boredom
or curiosity, and get to know them on a deeper
level... and from their you can either find
out what they want, and match yourself to
fulfill that, or stick to who you are, and if
they don't like it, fuck em... ... hold on

Riel 1/20/200 12:21 PM ------------ Wrote:
yeah.... also if you're not going to be direct
about it, like not just go and ask them out,
if you're gonna go slow about it, don't make
it obvious that you're interested, at least
not too obvious... because it'll make the girl
uncomfortable or expectant...

Riel 1/20/200 12:21 PM ------------ Wrote:
there are 3 main styles that i can think of...
categorized as direct, desperate, and
long-term..

Riel 1/20/200 12:21 PM ------------ Wrote:
direct is usually from confident "hot" guys,
with lot's of self confidece and pickup
lines...

umm.. long term is like you're willing to put
a lot of time and effort into "creating" a
relationship, by being subtle, and caring, and
stuff like that... so by the time you actually
officially are going out, you've been really
close to that level for a while....

desperate is basically this is the only thing
you think about, and you want to spend all
your time with the girl.. and its important
not to let this show if this is in fact how
you are... from time to time, you have to
casually interact, or flirt with other girls
just to show that you're not dependent, and
you're not going to be pushed around and
stuff... or whipped as it is more commonly
known as...

Ha, so very very true in my observational experiences. So how does one use this knowledge? I don't know.

Mei! I actually found a snippet that said that you were either going to go to Engineering or Act Sci at UoT or Waterloo. In the end you went for neither. Liar =p.

Bah. As a read more and more of this, I realize how many things I expected and never achieved/deserved/got. And how much of a coward I am. UGGGH!

I also notice that I usually notice someone in the first few times I've met them, and then I never seem to do anything about it. So it was in HS, so it is in university. Sigh. What the hell am I trying to do here?

Wow...I don't even know what the hell I'm doing anymore. Got an hour before the lab. Fun.