Monday, April 21, 2008

Spring nights

I just got home thirty minutes ago. Chipback is making me tired, but I do get work done.

I'm sitting outside again. It's nice.

Chatting with some friends. Enjoying the nice breeze.

It's tranquil.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Outside in a Lounge Chair

outside in a lounge chair
Originally uploaded by RielLanart
Went to work today for chip bringup. So basically like 8 hours with no lunch, and working on a Saturday. Very much of a waste because today is one of the most perfect days I've encountered in terms of weather.

I love this time of year. It's not too hot, yet it is warm enough to just sit outside. No bugs yet because it is early in the year. It's not cold at all.

I'm sitting outside in a lounge chair. The usual luminance of the full moon is richly clouded over by a light overnight haze. The breeze is warmly pleasant. I wish I had an alcoholic beverage right now. It feels so perfect.

It is one of those nights where everything seems perfect and magical.I wish it would be like this in four days as well. Perfect.

Till I see you in my dreams again, my dear Valkyrie.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Project status

Seventeen days since my last post. Jobs been taking a turn, as I have to really understand what I'm doing now. I'm not sure how it is progressing. Our open position has been cut, as well as our PEY.

Life has been fairly normal. Nothing out of the extraordinary has happened. Been coming home late though, and tired. I'm not as young as I used to be, and I probably shouldn't try what I used to do in university.

Went shopping for clothes the other day. Bought some stuff. It was a fcuk warehouse sale. Can't say everything fit or look good on me, but I did get a pair of jeans. I haven't worn jeans for half a decade.

Been thinking of reorganizing my living room. I thought about adding a bookshelf. Hopefully, after all this is done, I can invite people over. I keep putting it off though.

The project is going good. Except that I don't sleep as early as I should. Overall, I think my new haircut looks okay. Not the best, but it kind of suits me. I have to start throwing out garbage though. Been too much of that recently. Lots of dreams too. Kind of scary and exhilarating at the same time. Very interesting. And of course, there's always her. But like xkcd says..."wanting something doesn't make it real."

Somehow, seeing how some of my former peers eclipsing me in achievements and going on to prestigious schools make me sad. Why deidn't I ever do anything like that? I do realize that I don't have the temperament and passion suited for research. I am still looking for that passion.

As for girls, no one interests me yet. I think that once you do meet a girl and get focused on her, its almost if you're willing to sacrifice the other parts of your life from excellence to mediocrity just so that you can be number 1 with her. I don't know if I could sacrifice myself that way. But I do realize I should try it first before I knock it.

I'm going to write a series of essays that will just be my own personal reflections on life. I can't write about stuff I don't know after all. So all I have is my theories on various parts of life and try to mesh it into one coherent whole. I will release it when I am done.

Sorry to disappoint you Lisha, but my life still seems to be standing still. Unfortunately.

Till I see you in my dreams, my Valkyrie.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

April Fools?

Nothing special happened. Just went and had lunch with Betsy. I envy Darren and Thanesh, they get to go on cool adventures in the states. Richmond called me while eating though, because he was buying a laptop.

Figured out a problem at work today that's annoyed me for 3 days. It was so simple too. Ugh. Sometimes I wonder about myself and lack of sleep. It obviously affects work.

I need to in the near future:
1. register for Anime North.
2. decide when to go to Vancouver.
3. Get a haircut (because all the barbershop places close way too early)

That's all on my plate so far. Maybe later.


Inspiration flashes.

For some reason I want to write about a story. The story as it stands, would be about how hard it is being to connect with people in this world. As well as having a whole state vs. religion thing, combining the big bang theory and how short our lives are really in this universe of ours.

Actually, I think it would be more about alienation...well, I lost the flash of inspiration. I think I have to watch more depressing stuff on media changes and censorship and recombine my old story first. Add some military tones to it. Portray the villain as a anti-hero. And the real villain being an evil controlling organization. With less conspiracy and more on personality and indoctrination of institutions such as religion.

Anyways, I decided that my destination for this year is Vancouver. I will somehow schedule to go there. And plan a trip. But don't know when yet though.

Till I see you in my dreams, my Valkyrie.