Surprising?

Not really Carter. I'm not surprised at all that most of the Z Crew are looking for something worthwhile to do with their lives. (And yeah, we need a better name than Z Crew).

Look at our society as it stands today. We all have a result-driven mentality, coupled with ego-boosting classes in the gifted program, and the discovery of so many unique (yet seemingly lacking) individuals achieving success, we all seem to be waiting for success to either fall into our laps because we're unique or we're waiting for something for us to feel passionate about.

One of the many problems with that is that we're interested in too many things.

That's one of the hallmarks of a 'gifted' child, or at least in our class. We have interests in a variety of subjects, that it is hard to feel passionate about any single one. Carter, you graduated with a major in biochemistry and now you want to do screenwriting? That's a huge swing, and you're not alone in that at all.

When you have so many interests, it is hard to be passionate about any single one. They are all equally important, and therefore, we lack the drive to succeed in areas that we could. Instead, we languish in our lives, hoping something would come along.

And some people are really motivated in a given subject because that's all they're good at. Some others feel motivated in a given subject because it is the only world they are exposed to. But because of the Internet, and the free flow of information it represents, it is hard to distinguish knowledge from data, and we become interested in many things, but knowledgeable in almost nothing. And that lack of true knowledge hurts our motivation because we're in between the threshold of apathy and passion.

And unfortunately to be a specialist, all too often you have to give up so many things to succeed in one particular field. And unfortunately, we like to keep our options open. And we're not great risk takers. Most of us are content to minimize our risk and do things that would succeed, albeit in mediocre form.

What I'm trying to say is that we're all waiting for opportunity to fall into our laps. We expect too much from this world. It's not just us either. There was an article that states that many new IT workers from 18 to the early twenties have a turnover rate of around a year. That's nothing in today's job market. Most of them want more than they should be getting: like an office, more than entry-level salary, and interesting design work, as soon as they get hired. They hear all these great stories and think that it is the rule, not the exception. No one wants to work hard anymore and we all try to cut corners because it is all that we know nowadays. It is the easiness of life nowadays that make us feel dispassionate and stupid. And we think that the easiness from high school and university will continue, until reality comes plunging down.
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Oh, and I notice something weird the other day. I noticed that most of my infatuations were towards older girls. I wonder if my instincts are trying to tell me something.

Lisha says that's great, at least you know what you want. But I don't. My brain and mind tells me that I want a girl younger than me, yet I find women that are around 2 years older than me more attractive. Weird. Eh, whatever will be, will be. Only time can tell what will happen in the future.

Till I see you in my dreams, my Valkyrie.