The feeling right now is...

Fuck this. Fuck all of this.

Sigh.

I'm this close....this close...and yes...very annoyed right now. At the world in general, but then again, mostly at myself. Mostly at myself.

I don't know how to describe it. It's probably like a mid-life crisis, mixed with a lack of achievement and dedication. A lack of meaning I guess, in life, in reality, in everything. What is it? I'm tired of trying to find out the patient way. It's like an altered state of mind. I'm just very very annoyed right now.

And worst of all is, I really can't direct this energy anywhere. It's not anybody's fault, not even my own. It's all circumstance.

Well. Those feelings stay here for a while.

Good night.